Real Talk Alert 🚨
Full confessional here with another mom fail today!
I can’t seem to understand why I keep losing it. 😔
Why is my patience set so low?
I’ve spoken about this before - the struggle is real.
As a mom - I desperately want that fairytale relationship with my daughters but that doesn’t seem possible sometimes.
When your 5 yr old can’t or won’t listen, and you feel like your getting nowhere - it’s extremely frustrating! So much so that I go from zero to 💯
ENOUGH - I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE - I scream out! 😢
That feeling of “I failed again” washes over me, ugh 😩 guilt, shame!
I don’t say this as an excuse- but because I know it to be true!
I’ve put walls up to protect my heart from repeated disappointments for the last 15 yrs- I have allowed my heart to harden and I believe my fuse has gotten shorter. Therefore my fuse is shorter with everyone - including that disobedient 5 yr old acting way to grown, my 15 yr old that doesn’t accept my answer so keeps going & going until ...... ENOUGH I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Im tired - this isn’t who I want to be.
Im a mere shell of who I use to be and can’t seem to shake it.
My prayers are many, ~ Lord heal this broken heart 💔 so I can be who I know you designed me to be
~ Lord help me take these walls I’ve put up & remind me daily that my help comes from you
~ Lord soften my heart and allow patience instead of anger to flow through it
~ Lord I surrender this all to you - help me come to you 1st when I’m overwhelmed
I’m giving myself grace today,
trying not to beat myself up anymore today
Saying to myself
ENOUGH, I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.
I am a work in progress- Gods not finished with me yet. #godsnotfinishedwithmeyet