Yep! Feeling the waves alright. Moments of peace mixed in with unexpected tidal waves of anxiety. Trying to adjust to ironically less time in solitude with having my wonderful husband and gorgeous boys at home. Trying as much as I can to trust, surrender, accept things as they are. Trying to 'let it be'. Keeping the spiritual practices and self-care as high as I'm able to. It's honestly really great but some moments are just overwhelming and draining. So much 'work' to reach this point, and some moments feel like we are back at square one. Truth is, I'm not. And neither are you. We have come further than we think and we are stronger than we can ever know. We are way more equipped than we have ever been.
It's not your fault for what you've been through that makes your body respond in this way. As if it didn't feel hard enough before. You're allowed to feel this way even if you think or know that 'others have it worse'. What you feel is valid. You are seen and you are heard. You deserve to feel safe, and like you belong. Please read my words and remember.
REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTHY! YOU ARE SO WORTHY!
Please write this affirmation wherever you can so you can see it so often, because THIS is the truth. You can rest here for as long as you need.
Take comfort, you are safe and held⚘